Introducing My Debut SeIf-Published Poetry Book!: ‘If I Bare My Soul’ Out NOW Only on Amazon

It’s always been a dream of mine to write a book. I’ve been told numerous times “You have such a unique story to tell! You should write a book!” and for a while that was hard for me to grasp because, to me, I’ve always just felt like your average girl, that just so happens to have been born with a disability. I always seem to revert back to this idea of, who cares what I have to say? So though I had this dream within me, I never thought I had anything interesting enough to say. 

But the more I shared my writings on social media and received supportive feedback, the more I fell in love with it and gained confidence in my creative skills. Though it wasn’t actually until I confided in my best friend about this hesitancy I’d felt and she told me “I think all creatives have this when they’re on the brink of something good, it just means you care!,” that I truly felt like maybe she was right, that maybe I just needed to go for it.

Many years into my writing career, I was starting to feel discouraged because I wasn’t receiving the opportunities that I once believed would come easily, so I came to this realization that if I wanted to accomplish this dream of mine, I’d have to take matters into my own hands. And so, at the beginning of this year I set intentions for myself that by summertime I would self-publish a book. It was more than a goal, but a promise I intended to keep to myself. Finally on July 10th, I did just that, and published my debut poetry book.

Not even a power outage could take away my joy in sharing my debut book with the world!

This book is a mix of raw honest narratives from my perspective, not only as a young woman trying to navigate life but as a proud person with a disability, as well as some fictional creative writing pieces. Because I find inspiration everywhere—in the falling autumn leaves, under the warmth of the scorching summer sun, in every melody of music I listen to—and everything I create, even fictional, is a piece of my soul that I am giving away.

This book is about getting to know myself and finding my true calling through the artistic outlet of written expression. It’s about navigating the chaos of life in your teenage years and your early twenties, about womanhood, and overcoming adversity. It’s about the great value I place on all the relationships I’m lucky enough to have in my life—the only type of relationships I’ve ever known up to this point in my life—my loving family and my cherished friendships. It’s about being human, one who has both good and bad days, and about self-love.

This book is for those that look like me, who can relate to my life experiences as a person with a disability. It’s for those that share with me an appreciation for literature, who like to get lost in storytelling and live vicariously through dream worlds with fictional characters. It is for all my fellow chronically single hopeless romantics and for the empaths, those who see the beauty in the natural world—in life and in every human connection on this planet.

This is by far the scariest, most vulnerable thing I’ve ever done in my life, but I’m ecstatic to share my first project of hopefully many more to come in the future. So, I guess all there’s left to say is: If I bare my soul, will you listen?

— faith maria

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The One Where I Turn 21

Earlier this month, I finally turned twenty-one. This is supposed to be the age that characterizes you as a “legal adult”, but truth be told I feel no different. Maybe this is because I hold the same goals and aspirations that I did when I was eighteen and started this blog. I knew then exactly who I wanted to be, and with this site I have been able to be just that for the past two and a half years.

At this age we’re supposed to have everything figured out. While it may seem like I do, in reality I know nothing at all and I’m still learning. The more I write, the more I learn about myself, the person I want to become, and the person I am capable of becoming.

While most people can’t wait to turn twenty-one so they can take their first legal sip of alcohol, I eagerly awaited turning twenty-one because it meant that I was able to see another year with the same amazing people in my life.

My favorite thing about my birthday isn’t receiving anything, it’s getting to spend time with my family and friends. On the night of May 3rd, I decided to get dressed up nice and dine at a fancy local restaurant alongside family.

Post-dinner photo shoot!

I have the most loyal, kind-hearted friends who always make time to see me although we live miles apart. Even when my best friend Temora wasn’t able to make it home in time for my birthday, she still surprised me and sent a beautiful bouquet of flowers! When we were finally able to get together, we had the greatest time catching up with one another until the sun went down.

the bouquet included my favorite flowers: roses!
Its never too late to celebrate!

I had previously gotten the chance to celebrate with my great friend, Suzy. What started as a random silly idea turned into a actual party for two. My favorite feeling in the world is nostalgia, so we held an early 2000s themed movie and music night-in to reminisce on the classic films and hits from our childhood. We even dressed for the occasion!

Though we were just babies in the early 2000s, I think we did a great job capturing the fashion trends of this era.
Actual footage of us two.

I never intended on making a month-long spectacle out of my birthday, but I would never pass up any time I can get with my friends when they can visit home. The friends that I have are some of the most important people to me and are the reason I look forward to special occasions such as birthdays. While one keeps me grounded and provides me a sense of refreshing familiarity, the other keeps the happy-go-lucky child in me alive. I can’t imagine my life without either one of them.

So here’s to reaching twenty-one years of life, a milestone to some, yet to me just another chapter in my book of many more cherished stories to come.