The Phony Poet

In honor of World Poetry Day, here’s poem about a poet (me) who has only ever written her works via keyboard and computer screen to comply with the way this modernized society works, yet at the same time, often writing about her deep love for paper and the pen, which can at times feel “phony”. ✍🏻

Written in between these lines
are little lies, 
told by a poet who holds some secrets—
though she’s not sure how much longer she can keep them. 

The poet, who’s written of her love for the pen
time and time again,
truthfully, has yet to ink her words by hand onto pages in black.
She’s an imposter—who wears many masks.

Rather she’s been hiding behind a screen, 
ever since the world around her 
was taken over 
by these tempting technologies. 

She wants you to believe
that her words are told with pure sincerity.
Yet all she can do is feel guilty
as she sits back and watches libraries, precious sheets
of paper, and beloved books become obsolete.

The only feeling she really knows, is the touch of her fingertips to a keyboard—
that only leaves her hankering for something more. 

As she types,
she’s haunted 
by the sounds of these keys—click, click, click
She tosses and turns at night, 
feeling taunted 
by the cries of the clock in her mind that never ceases to tick, tick, tick.

Unknown, is just how much time there is left, 
so residing within her, are all these regrets. 
If only she could, she’d go back to a time
when the grace of a quill pen was still cherished and live amongst the greatest poets alive.

Think she ought to give up this charade,
pick up a pen, and let go of this masquerade. 
Because until then, no one will ever truly see
the beauty of it all and once it’s too late, all she might ever be known as—is the phony.

Mariposa  

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Mariposa, drifting through the wind, 
couldn’t wait to grow wings so that your life could begin. 

Found it hard to come out of your shell, 
but that’s a secret you’d never tell.

Mariposa, with the colors of fiery embers, 
went searching for warmth this September. 

All grown-up, with so much to live up to, 
suffered silently, while nobody else knew. 

Mariposa, why do you cry?
withstood wounds, yet still you could fly. 

Though you held on for as long as you could, 
you endured more than anyone should. 

Mariposa, breathe deep and close your eyes. 
You gained a new kind of wings, so in the place you left is where your memory lies.

Once just an adolescent, 
now your spirit shines iridescent.

Mariposa, your metamorphosis was remarkable for all to witness, 
it’s a tragic tale, your story had to end in sickness.

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Much like last month’s post, inspiration for this piece came not from a true personal experience, but simply by learning about the life of monarch butterflies. Did you know that final generation monarch butterflies (born in spring, migrate south in fall) typically have a much longer lifespan (months as opposed to weeks) than the first generation (born late summer/early fall, migrate north in spring)? However, any of the migratory monarchs are likely to face threats to their survival along their journey. Therefore, some of the final-generation monarchs may not live as long as they are expected to, hence the idea behind this piece. I used the Spanish translation of butterfly, “mariposa”, as a nod to Spanish Heritage Month (September 15th-October 15th). If you’ve made it to the end of this, thanks for reading!